i'm struggling

with the words to tell you

but perhaps that's the problem

these feelings can never be words

that i could tell you

they are locked away

not because i won't say them

but because i don't seem to know how

they always seem to catch in my throat

so the years pass and we manage to stay friends

and still i hold them

for you

unspoken.

until the day i finally do

and you say to me

"everything will be ok."