do you see it now?
upon reflection, the times we get into the biggest messes are times when we are so zoomed in we lose
i'm struggling
with the words to tell you
but perhaps that's the problem
these feelings can never be words
that
it's never just coffee
waking in the morning to a shifting life
new thoughts and feelings
between the person we fell asleep with
and
pay attention
there's a kind of fear that you get when there's turbulence on a flight. but what
daily prescription
the first moment you wake up there will be thoughts already in your mind
like a conversation that you are
letting go, running away
the present moment
is a mantra one says when one is walking down the street trying to escape the past
all the pretty things
so much fear.
too many drugs.
too many nights where I couldn't be alone so I abandoned myself.
morning breakfast
i woke up swimming in the past.
the thoughts of her, and the pain I caused her, forming in my
the best years of my life were not moments in life
the best years of my life, so far, have all been in my 40's
though many of the